I have a problem with tension.
I carry tension around in me throughout my body, but it is particularly bad between my shoulder blades and through my hips. I also have been told my pedicurists that I carry a lot of tension in my calves, but this never seems to bother me as much as the tension I naturally carry in my back.
Believe me, I know this is not a good thing. And it’s not like I don’t try to do something about it. I go for massages regularly. Good ones too. I also make it a point to go for facials – not necessarily just for the good it does my face, but also because it is one of the few times I really feel myself ‘letting go’ for want of a better phrase.
I wish the feeling of tension release that I get after a 90 minute massage or facial would be easier/cheaper for me to come by – but usually, by the next day, the tension is back.
I really don’t think I am getting this tension solely from the way I sit at the computer. I do my best to be ergonomically ‘correct’. I think I carry my stress in my body more than anything else. Which is probably why I get physically exhausted and totally worn out when I am under extra stress.
I tried yoga once. But I really think I might actually need some sort of relaxation hypnotherapy to force myself to release and let go. Any recommendations of podcasts or other medium for this purpose would be GREATLY appreciated.